I chose to use this picture of myself because to me it is an example of what I want to make myself into throughout my long years in high school, and start college by being who I truly am. This picture reminds me of Vermeer's portrait Griet because she looked very natural, nothing was on her face to enhance anything, no makeup, I only used natural light in the picture, I didn't edit it. She didn't have much expression, though I feel her face looks more happy than sad or dreary, so I chose to smile in my picture to show that as well as express my goal I would like to achieve by the time I'm out of high school.
I don't know exactly what I want to study to in college. Part of me wants to get into a profession thats soul purpose revolves around computers, part of me wants to be an English teacher, another wants to be an artist, a writer, there are so many things I want to be able to do that not many things are completely certain in my future. At the same time, some major things are. My main goal is to be genuinely happy with the person I am, the things I've done, and the people I'm surrounded by. I really don't want to get to college and hate absolutely every choice I've made, the people I spend my time with, and who I am. That's practically setting me up for failure.
To achieve my goal of happiness, I plan on attempting to look at things with a different perspective whenever I'm not in the best mood, and if I can't, then stepping away and thinking of a proper solution. Things happen, and not everything will go exactly as I hope it will, but my goal to honestly be happy with myself is not something I will let go as easily as the things that go wrong. So many adults are obviously unhappy with their lives, and I don't want to see myself like them. High school is like a flight of stairs, it goes on for four years, and lately I've been falling down them. I want to start an ongoing climb from now on.
